Gaano Kadali Magpasensya?

Gaano ba kadali ang magpasensya? Kasing dali ba ito ng pagbiblang ng isa, dalawa, tatlo? Kasing dali ba ito ng paglalakad? Kasing dali ba ito ng paghinga?

May mga bagay sa ating buhay na sadyang hindi natin binibigyan ng halaga. May mga bagay na tila ba kompante na tayo dahil ang akala natin ay lagi itong nariyan. Kung kaya dumarating tayo sa punto na tayo ay nakalilimot.

Hinga ng malalim. Sabay buga. Hinga. Hawakan hanggang makakaya.

Hindi ba ang pasensya natin ay parang hihinga tayo tapos iho-hold natin pero kung hindi na natin kaya ay wala tayong choice kung hindi ibubuga na natin.

Hindi ba ang pasensya natin ay parang lobo na pwede nating palobohin pero kung humigit na nito ang hangganan ay tiyak na ito ay puputok.

Hindi madali ang magpasensya. Lalo na, hindi madali ang umunawa. Umunawa ng mga taong hindi marunong makisama. Umunawa ng mga taong sarili lang nila ang kanilang iniisip. Tila ba na sa kanila lang umiikot ang mundong ating ginagalawan.

Mahirap, pero kakayanin. Mahirap, dahil nasasaktan na ang ating mga damdamin. Lalo na kung ang pasensya mo ay lagging sinusubok ng mga taong nakapaligid sa atin.

Isa, Dalawa, Tatlo, Apat…

Sige magbilang tayo ng paulit-ulit. Paulit-ulitin natin hanggang sa tao ay matauhan sa ating mga kalokohan. O kung ‘di naman kaya ay pukpukin na lang ang kahit anong bagay na nasa ating harapan nang sa gayon ay makaramdam naman tayo ng kahihiyan.

Pasenya. Isang salitang madaling sambitin pero mahirap gawin.

Gaano kadali magpasensya? SOBRANG DALI.

Hiling

 Salin-wika sa Filipino ni Yuehnd Familara

Matapos ang nakakapagod na araw

Sa aking pag-uwi,

Nakaramdam ako na kakaibang bagay

Nakakapagpabagabag,

Akoy lubos na nag-aalala,

Di maipaliwanag

Ayos lang kaya ako?

Sa mga araw na nagdaan

Tila ba ang bilis umusad ng oras,

Nakatulala lamang ako sa kalangitan

Tulad ng isang taong walang ano mang iniisip

Sinisisi ko at pinagtatawanan ang aking sarili

Dahil mas lalo akong nagiging miserable,

Lalo na kung di kita kapiling

Naaawa ako sa aking sarili

Tunay ngang gusto kita

Sa harap nitong ‘di mabilang na emosyon

Di ko magawang hilingin isang tulad mo kalian pa man

Ano ang kaya ang dapat kong gawin?

Di matapos ang aking pangungulila sa’yo

Kahit ipikit ang pa ang aking namamasang mga mata

Di ka pa rin mawala sa aking isip

Ganon din ba kaya ang nararamdaman mo para sa akin?

Ngayon ako'y nangangarap,humihiling

Na ang pag-ibig ko sa'yo ay maglaho na

Isang hiling na tila ba'y walang silbi,

Subalit patuloy pa rin akong humihiling

Mula sa orihinal na awitin ni Urban Zakapa na Wish, OST ng sikat na KDrama na Goblin (Guardian), 2016

haha wag n'yo na subukang kantahin.  

Himbing

ni Yuehnd Familara

Mga himig na nalikha mula sa pighati
Sabay ng mga luhang umagos sa mukha ng mga api
Salamin ng kahapong ‘di maitanggi
Dapat nang matigil ang gano’ng hapdi

Dugo, luha, pawis
Ang nadilig na sa lupa ng mga taong sawi
Sawi sa layang mamuhay ng nagsasarili
At malayo sa hapas ng latigong pagi

Nadapa, Bumangon, Tumindig
Ang paulit-ulit na gawain ng durog
Durog na pagkatao na pilit binubuo
Ng mga taong nabaon na sa alaala ng kahapon

Lumaban, Nagsumikap, Lumaya
Mga alipin ng kahapon, ngayo’y nag-aapoy
Nag-aapoy sa damdaming makalaya sa pagkakatali ng kanyang amo
Dugo, Bumganon, Lumaya, panaginip lang pala ang mga ito.

COLORING SHADOWS (ver. 2)

by Yuehnd Familara

On the day that gods conquered our land
Our freedom, wealth, and soul devoured by guns.
The color of Red flooded the earth
That drifts beneath our raging Sun.

People fought and died for IT;
Against the monstrous tyranny from the EAST
Blood, Toil, Tears, and Sweat were offered
To regain the stolen freedom of our past.

With the aim for freedom, a Flag was weaved
With the sun and three stars that made us amalgamated;
The color of red that conveys strength for those who tussled
With a shade of blue that tells us that we are united.

Then a hymn was sung on 12th of June 1898
Uttering meaningful words that declare sovereignty
An anthem that was sung on that historical balcony
And a flag that symbolizes that we are now FREE!

From FEAR to GLADNESS people celebrated
For that short-lived freedom that was never accepted
Months later a gun fire was heard
Commencing another threat coming from the buyer.

Once again we, the natives were conquered;
By new gods that promised education for everyone
Ships started to arrive with TOMMIES inside
That trained us to bark like BOW-WOW-WOW

 Years have passed, the Brown was covered by white
And started to live in the shadows of our New Gods
We now to hate for the things that we have
Even the brown color of the skin we possess

Hundreds of Years under the colonizers
We now lost our identity that came from our forefathers
A shade of GREY was left from our vibrant rainbow,
That once shined from our clear blue sky.


Hope from the Orient once again renewed
That on few years’ time their land will be liberated
From those who made us thinking
That WHITES are superior human being

Then a plane from the sky flew over the Capitol
A bomb was dropped on a lovely harbor
Armies of gods from our neighbor
Forcibly took the control from our buyers

Women were raped, Children were bayoneted
By the monsters from the land where the Sun Rises
Killing innocent lives to those who blocked
Making GARDENs grew to like how the mushrooms bloom

For the next THREE years people suffered;
FEAR once again ruled over those grieved
HANDS that once was FREE were now knotted
By the gods came from the north of the Earth.

Then A-Bombs were dropped to the land of the occupiers,
That forced them to left on the land that writhed
Leaving the ROSES on the lonely hills
That WEPT on the GARDENS that the gods have created

A PROMISE that was made by a man from the EAST
The ORIENT was freed, granting freedom at least
On the Day they called independence of the WEST
The SONG of the BROWNS was sung on its best.

Salaming Walang Mukha

Ang aking isip ay lumilipad sa kalawakang puno ng mga katanungang mahirap hanapan ng kasagutan. Ang aking damdamin ay pawang lumalangoy taliwas sa agos ng daluyong ng karagatan. Ang diwa ko nama'y sumusunod lamang sa ilawód ng mga pangyayari sa kapaligiran habang ang puso ko ay parang bangkang papel na nakikipagbuno laban sa agos ng ilog tungong irayà. 

Hindi ko alam kung saan na nga ba ako patungo. Subalit, patuloy pa rin akong naglalakad sa madilim na daan tangan lamang ang sulô na nagbibigay liwanag sa madilim na kagubatan ng aking magulong kaisipan. 

Minsan, naisip kong tumingin sa salamin upang tanungin ang aking sarili. Ako'y nabigo, dahil pawang anino lamang ng kahapon ang aking nasulyapan at hindi ang aking sarili. Pagtanggap ang sumampal sa mukhang manhid sa katotohanang ayaw kong paniwalaan.

Ako'y nagising sa sakit na nadama nang katotohanan. Bumuhos sa katawan ko ang tubig na puno ng yelo na mas lalong pumukaw na nanaginip kong pagkatao. Pagtanggap ng sarili ang bumalot sa katawan ko na gumabay sa naliligaw kong pagkatao. 

After Heneral Luna, Goyong's Story Is Next

photo from geoffreview.com

After the success of the historical biopic film "Heneral Luna", a film that tells the life of one of the greatest general of the 1st Philippine Republic Antonio Luna, a sequel is set to be filmed for the next couple of months that will showcase the heroism a the youngest general in the country. 

Yes, its true, according to Heneral Luna's Offical Facebook page "Bago niyo pa marinig sa iba: ‪#‎GOYONG‬, tuloy na tuloy na. ‪#‎HeneralLuna‬" that was posted on October 30 at 1:07am. 

Beforehand, the persons behind the said film already asked the people to support Heneral Luna to reach the breakeven box office sales of 200M in order to have resources to produce the next film.

According to them, Heneral Luna is the first part of a plot trilogy that will tell the story of how the revolution continued after the Americans took over the power over Spain. The sequel as I already mentioned, is about the life of Gregorio del Pilar and the third film will focus on the life of former President Manuel L Quezon.

Bago niyo pa marinig sa iba: #GOYONG, tuloy na tuloy na. #HeneralLuna
Posted by HENERAL LUNA on Thursday, October 29, 2015

Grateful

Written by Dharyll Udtujan

We traced the pattern of our dream’s design

Teach me the rhythm by which you make

Geography of leaves and sand

Destiny of tongue, unnamable word

Took me to the school

A place that I will never forget

Hide beneath his appearance

Touch the shape of its edge

Hear the sound of its tune

Make yourself truly worthy

Learn what you don’t know,

Teach what you know,

Cause’ life is but an empty dream!

To see what the future holds.

In mind and in heart

The hemispheres of reason and imagination

A stage that we can express the hidden soul,

A comforting one that is wrapped up neatly,

Inside a world he could control.

Someone Who Left

Written by Larryze Acuña

In this generation, the things that you usually have are the things you are comfortable with. Losing something or someone that became a part of your life is a big deal. As what others say, it’s hard to forget and move on. What will you do if you lost someone who became a part of our life? Will that affect you?

New school year and new faculty members, a lot of teachers left even before the past school year ended. What can you do to get them back? Nothing. It’s their own choice. Not ours, just be happy for them because they chose what they want, even if it means to leave.

For someone who left, there will always be someone who will come.

Welcome to the new set of faculty members. There are some who are strict. There are also kinds of teachers who know how to deal with fun while learning and teaching. Different teachers with only one goal.

No matter how they get annoyed with some students, they are still here. Willing to teach and eager to finish what they already started. That’s how much they love their job. In life, nothing is permanent. If you lose something, there will always be a replacement.

Divergent

Written by Ann Ruth Austria

A beaming sound that never stops,

A great energy as their heart pounds.

Molding a peak of sound,

Roaming the place with pride.

Declares all mind’s thoughts 

And acts with no choice of thought.

Blinded by what they see is perfect;

Unknown and passed by trouble.

A hidden world away from pack, 

Clothed in silence; no noise nor little crack.

Chosen to be alone

Than to be disturbed by the noise

Thought building packs yield no sense

A shuttered mouth presents the loudest minds.

A silent one, eyes through the darkness

Rely that society teaches limitation.

It's About "The Best of Youngblood"

“The Best of Youngblood” by Jorge Aruta, Ceres Doyo and Letty Jimenez-Magsanoc is a compilation of 77 essays from the Philippine Daily Inquirer. Some of it is “The Myth of Generation X and “Anak ng Katulong”.

“Anak ng Katulong” is what I liked most. It was based on a true story of its writer Joven de la Tierra. It tells us about the life of a child whose mother is house helper. They live in his mother’s master’s house. I can relate to this story because of my Aunt in the province that becomes a maid in Manila. It tells us what is the true status of the person such as the difference between rich and poor that was always seen where ever we are. It also tells even we work, and salary the not enough for the daily needs of the family.

The Myth of Generation X that was written by Frank Cimatu that tells us on how to live without religion and without God. Nowadays some people don’t believe in God anymore and sometimes they don’t respect it. According to the essay The Myth of Generation X “Judging from the number of my age mates joining Christian groups (in 1980, there were 288 Christian fundamentalist sects in the Philippines and Fil-Am community, but by 1987, there were more than 1,137), it is still safe to say Christ died for us.” I think this part of the article shows that they don’t believe that God save us from our sins and Christ died for us.

I notice that our lives differ from each other. We have different stories and experiences to share. We must live in life with faith in God and faith in our family.

This book shows many essay or stories that based in reality. This is good to read by the corrupt politician's even ordinary people so they could learn what is the life of those who live in poverty.

My College Life: In a Nutshell

Throwback when I was in high school, I really don’t know what course I will take in college. First I thought I like to work in an office as a business person or to work as a kitchen person. Then, there was a time where I was in third year that I got inspired by my teacher in English who passed away few months ago, who teaches us more than the lesson she prepared for us. She tough us good values, how to make decisions, and the possible risk of it and accept the consequences of every decision we've made. She said “I don’t care if you will not remember the lessons we have discussed, but make sure that the values you've learned from me should manifest to your future. If not, I’ll rise from my grave and haunt you”.


That moments leads to my mind that I like to be a teacher, I want to be what she was. So I took Bachelor of Secondary Education – Social Studies.
My first year as an education student wasn't good, its boring, maybe we don’t have major or professional subjects yet that focuses in teaching profession. But all changed when the next school years when we started to have professional subject accompanied by field studies. That was the time I enjoy and become excited to finish schooling and to become a real licensed teacher. We have studied theories, teaching strategies and more about teaching profession. We have attended seminars and conventions that enrich our knowledge that could help us in the near future.
Practice Teaching

Before, I thought I already know everything I need for my future profession, but I was wrong. The theories and things that I have learned from the past years of my studies is very idealistic far beyond the reality of teaching experience. I have learned all lot from my mentor / coordinating teacher, well to her co-teachers and to my friends around me. By observations, I learned many things. I have dissected things that I need to do and I need to avoid. My mentor thought me how to deal in extreme situations and how to separate personal emotions from work. Teachers should maintain its distance and limitation from the students in order to be respected by them. 

Before, I thought I already know everything I need for my future profession, but I was wrong. The theories and things that I have learned from the past years of my studies is very idealistic far beyond the reality of teaching experience. I have learned all lot from my mentor / coordinating teacher, well to her co-teachers and to my friends around me. By observations, I learned many things. I have dissected things that I need to do and I need to avoid. My mentor thought me how to deal in extreme situations and how to separate personal emotions from work. Teachers should maintain its distance and limitation from the students in order to be respected by them. 

At first, I was very nervous and afraid. It is because of my condition. The first things that comes on my mind was how will survive this,    how will I respond on the sarcasms of my students, how will I gain respect from them. That was the hardest time of my life as a student teacher. Time passes by, I learned how to get rid of that thoughts. I learned how to deal with it, How to illuminate the negative vibes that cross on my mind about myself, I learned so many things.

Sexualization of Children

By B.P. Familara

I often hear in the news about rape cases involving the parent or other relatives of the victim.  Sexual abuses to the children almost reached in epidemic proportions. In every culture, we cannot hide the fact that pedophilia is present and happening. Many treat our child as a possession they think that they can do whatever they want to do to their child. No matter if it is already violating their human rights. But, the question is this, how we Filipino manage to hide its presence? Maybe our culture might be the answer.  We live in a society that strongly cares about what our neighbor say about us. We tend to hide us much as possible all the scandals or mistakes we have done to avoid to be the center of gossips and to protect our dignity.

Let’s see Sexualization of children in two perspectives.  First is in the viewpoints of the developed country and second in the developing country. In countries like America, and Japan, child prostitution is not because of poverty but because of the needs in material things. Long before, there was a cover of a Newsweek Magazine that places of interest in what it refers to “Japan’s dirty secret: Schoolgirls selling sex” that is known as enjo kosai (Assistance Friendship). According to the deputy director of Tokyo Metropolitan Police juvenile division as the Newsweek have quoted “It has to do with a longing of material things. It is not that they come from poor families who need to support themselves. They just want to have more and more” (PDI, 1996).  The greediness of material things and peer pressure brings them to prostitution just to get what they want.  Ours first came into public awareness in form of street-children of Matro Manila and the young boys of Pangsanjan (PDI, 1996). The recent news about this was broadcast on ABS-CBN on their TV Program Failon Ngayon that was air 2 years ago is about the boys in San Pedro town in Laguna province selling their bodies to homosexual for as low as 20 pesos. One boy has said that he is forced to allow himself to be used by gays for a very cheap price because he has no parents to depend on. Some are aware about the health risk regarding to that activities but they have no choice because they need money to buy food.

There was an incident in Belgium that results a large protest (300,000 people joined) that is known as White March against the sex crimes of children. It is the death of two young girls that was kidnapped and repeatedly raped by the kidnappers.  In the Philippines, I cannot remember that we have a large protest that condemns to any child abuses. Is our society ready to face and fight that problem that was rooted long before our forefathers?
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based on the article of the Philippine Daily Inquirer that was published last Dec. 29, 1996  with the same title

Teachers as Leaders

by: B.P. Familara

Teaching as a form of leadership

Where we not just stand in front and teach

Instead we also guide and help them

To attain their goals and dreams

Let’s see teaching in another perspective

It’s not boring,

Not even easy

But teaching is a kind of leading

Doctors cure the sick

Engineers create something from the scrap

Lawyers and attorney help those in need

But teachers are the one how mold them to be.

Higanti

Isinulat ni B.P. Familara (2013)

Isang malakas na hangin ang nagsimulang umihip

Kalangitay nagdilim na pawang nagngangalit

Mga nanggugulat na kulog ang umalingawngaw sa paligid

Na nagbabadya ng isang paparating na panganib

At nagsimulang bumuhos ang mabigat na ulan

Mula sa tila ba’y galit na galit na kalangitan

Tubig sa kalupaa’y mabilis na tumaas

Na pawang nagnanais lunurin ang sanlibutan

Nagsisigawang mga tao ang maririnig sa paligid

Na nagmamakaawang mailayo sa panganib

Mala-karagadang paligid ang simulang mamutawi

Habang ang karamiha’y abala sa pagligtas ng sarili

Paghupa ng ulan ay isang masalimuot na tanawin

Na tila ba’y sinakluban ng langit at lupa ang buong paligid

Nagtumbang mga puno ang nakaharang sa kalsada

Makapal na putik naman ang naiwan sa mga tahanan

Hindi natin masasabi kung kalian at paano

Ang dapat lang natin gawin ay maghanda at manigurado

Na ating buhay ay mailayo sa piligro

Lalo na sa oras ng mapaghiganting dilubyo

Juan's Problem

It was 5 in the morning of January 28 when I tuned in Myx, a Filipino music channel featuring various music videos from different genres both popular and not and some from the late 1990s. The show Take5 features Gloc-9’s popular songs that morning. Some of it touches my heart especially when I heard the songs that tell a story about poverty and Filipinos going abroad seeking for an opportunity that is not clearly visible in our country.
Understanding why poverty exist is not that easy. Social scientists dig deeper to the root cause of it. Some researchers believed that poverty may have a root cause from the country’s history, culture and foreign relations.
Unemployment is one of the main factors of poverty in the country. In 2009, National Capital Region (NCR) carries about 7 percent of the country’s total population, according from the data gathered by the National Statistical Coordination Board. In the same juncture, approximately 4 out of 10 poor individuals are unemployed in Luzon. In the second quarter of 2012, approximately 10.9 million individuals are unemployed, according to a recent survey by the Social Weather Stations (SWS).
This high count of unemployment rate in our country might have caused by lack of job opportunities and willingness to work.
The songs written by Gloc-9 entitled “Wala ng Natira” is pertaining to the Filipinos going abroad, looking for better or even good opportunities in order to sustain the needs of their family. I quote,

“Napakaraming guro dito sa amin ngunit 

Bakit tila walang natira

Napakaraming nurse dito sa amin

Ngunit bakit tila walang natira 

Nagaabroad sila 

(Gusto kong yumaman4x)”

These lines directly says that people belongs to poor family most likely tend to go abroad, hoping for better opportunities that could raise them up from the ashes of poverty.  But in contrary to his other song “Bakit Hindi” wherein he tells that many people just wanted to sit and stay at home waiting for some GOs and NGOs to extend their help to them. Many of our fellowmen portrays the characteristics of Juan Taman: A young boy that waited for the fruit of Guava to fall into his mouth.

I believe that we Filipinos are great. We can surpass all kinds of problems surrounding us. But before we became as great as other developed countries, we must first develop our own identity, love of country. This is for us to get out inside the box that where we are now for us to attain our dream future.

Colors of the Past ver. 2

On the day that whites conquered our land

Our freedom, wealth and soul were gone.

The color of Red covered the earth

That flowed beneath our raging Sun

People fought and died for us

Against the monstrous tyranny of the EAST

Blood, Toil and Tears that our country men have offered

To regain the stolen freedom of our past

For the aim of freedom a Flag was weaved

With sun and three stars that stand for unity

The color of red that tells that we will fight

And a shade of blue that aims peace among us

Then a hymn started to be heard

And meaningful words changed everything

An anthem that was sang on the 12^th day of June

And a flag that was waved on the balcony that tells that we wereFREE.

After six months of unrecognized independence

A treaty in Paris was signed without our knowledge

By the Trojans who wanted to straighten their will

That exploited our culture and implanted theirs to us.

Then schools were established by Uncle Sam

And made educated every JUAN

The knowledge that wasn't meant for everyone

It was used to conceal their evil plan

For the past centuries

Four conquerors entered and flourished

But we stood and fought together

In order to protect our beloved Nation

Looking Forward to the Future

I don't know how to start my entry. How to begin my first paragraph, my first sentence. It is hard for me to choose the appropriate word. But this is the only thing that runs to my mind. It is about how to start a better future.

A better future is our choice, it is up to us what way we will choose, either on a good way or bad way. For example, if you want a good life into the future, you must strive to finish your schooling first before to do things that you are not yet prepared. Think first before you do an action that can affect your life. Don't let your emotions eat you, use your mind, use your thinking skills to decide what will you do, what decision will you plan to make. Every decision is corresponding has a consequences.

If you have no plan in your life, just leave a consideration to those who strive their best to reach success. Do not pull them down. You can not help our country by just a street standby and jobless. Think again. The key to your to success is in your own bare-hands. You are the one doing your actions.

Think, think, think... think what future belongs to you...